“last friday after i got up from the table
and was putting on my shoes
i heard a woman discussing her next visit
and she said, “i think the next visit will be my last.”
i at one time thought there would be an end..
now i realize that your care is a part,
an important part of the whole process
which for me includes watching my diet, daily exercise/mediation, having good thoughts, and having a doctor who cares for me.
there never comes an end to having/wanting a good diet, exercise,etc.
i feel the same about your care,
i don’t want it to end….
what i like most about your care
is that you can read/feel my body
for me, when my body becomes tense or there’s pain
-i don’t know if it’s real or fake –
so i try not to feel, and instead try to become an observer of my body
and watch from a distance
you have the ability to do more than just observe
you can feel the truth in my body, not be misled
and talk to it..
it’s an important part of the whole process
it doesn’t end
nor do i want it to.
this week marks three years since my last chemo treatment.
: ) warm blessings, steve”